| sluts just heal faster |
[05 Jan 2002|12:10am] |
meh. i think i feel terrible. again.
i wish i could just forget and move on. but i can't stop thinking about how, if i didn't push him so far away we'd might just be friends. and i could've been a little bit more patient. this isnt anything new, this is from a few months ago. but still, i haven't talked to him in forever :/ i miss the friendship we had while it lasted.
heh. i should go do this somewhere else now.
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[26 Dec 2001|03:55pm] |
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put /~juelsta on your friends list, cause uhm...i dont update this one anymore.
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[23 Dec 2001|01:29am] |
READ THIS.
blah. this journal is ugly.
so i got a new one.
/~juelsta
its a paid account. so ill be posting on lj more now, cause deadjournal wont come back till wednesday and im all stuck on livejournal again ;p
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[22 Dec 2001|09:16pm] |
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blah. get over it. chrissakes.
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| im walking empty streets hoping we might meet |
[22 Dec 2001|07:21pm] |
he wasn't there :(*
i dunno why, but i was crying in the car on the way back. i dunno if my brother saw or not but he was being really nice, i guess he felt bad for me.
so. to plan B. sunday= go to the mall, go to bed and sleep for the rest of the day. monday= if i make plans with someone, ill go to the filth mart.
and every other day after that. im just gonna sleep.
and even though my parents will be gone for 4 days. im just gonna invite my friends over to watch movies and if they want, they can drink.
so hmm if anyone wants to come ova those days just tell me. cause there are some ppl i havent seen in so long *hint hint*
hmph, i dunno. i think i give up on looking for a relationship. i think i try too hard. so i'll close my eyes, i dont want to get hurt.
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[22 Dec 2001|03:04pm] |
omg.
im feel sick.
i am sick.
i feel even more sick =(
im terrified. paranoid
ugh.
*wants to go hide under the covers*
my aunt called... she said "maybe that cute waiter is gonna be there"
oohhh made me even more scared.
hes so adorable.
*Cries*
too good for me though.
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[22 Dec 2001|02:56pm] |
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ugh. never been so fucking nervous in my entire life.
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[21 Dec 2001|11:58pm] |
hhmm. well i got my kill hannah shirt in the mail today, ep i <333 it. so tommorow maybe i'll take pics and model it. =p, cause tommorow is doom day. seriously too.
poo, im getting sick. so far its stuffy nose and throat.
no filth mart today, why? im a lazy ass. but next week i'll def. go.
sunday im going to broadway mall, so just in case saturday doesnt work out, shopping will make me somewhat happier?
aw i was watching swordfish. aw drea ;p
hhhmm... i should be tired & i should be sleeping. but im not =(
blah during vacation im gonna be in bed mostly and NOT online. so just in case, im not dead or anything. but if i dont post tommorow nite its because ima very unhappy girl cause *Something* didn't work out. ooohhh wish me luck. *crosses fingers* *feels even more sick*
i think this thing takes to long to load:
I'm gonna sing the doom song now! Doom doom doom doom doom doom doom doom Doom! Doom doom doom! Doom doom doom doom doom doom doom doom! Doom doom doom! Doom doom doom doom doom doom doom doom! Doom! Doom! Doom doom doom doom doom doom doom doom! Doom doom doom doom doom doom! Doom doom doom doom! Doom doom doom doom doom doom doom doom doom! Doom doom doom! The end! Oh wha's that?
Take the Invader Zim quiz!
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[21 Dec 2001|02:36pm] |
Hooray! I'm STEVIE NICKS, vocalist and tambourine-ist of Fleetwood Mac! I'm very caring, generous, loving, and sweet. I enjoy twirling and banging away on my tambourine with the occasional wail. I'd give to charity any day of the week and if one person gets hurt, I'd call off everything to aid him. Too damn bad everyone thinks I'm a witch, though :\
I wail/bang away on songs like "Gold Dust Woman," "Sister Of The Moon," and "Edge Of Seventeen."
Which member of Fleetwood Mac are you?
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| ill take my chance on a beautiful stranger |
[21 Dec 2001|01:57pm] |
hm. well it's kinda sad how im running to my livejournal instead of just talking it out with an actual person. lol.
anyway. i realized. as much as i want a relationship, i keep running from them. thats what i did with mike, but that was completely different too.
my horoscope: "Do you want to be in the relationship or don't you? This is a question you need to be asking yourself, not other people. You know that attachment and singlehood both come with a price, and you seem to be all too familiar with both sides of this particular coin"
(this is for tommorow tho, *the* day i talk to justin, aahh)
true. i guess i never had a stable or long relationship because it wasn't right. the second i see something i don't like i get completely unattached. and i always get into them with the wrong people.
welp, i'll take my chances. as much as i think as it wont work out im sure somewhere inside i know it will.
welp, if i dont write here the next couple of days you'll know something went wrong. ;p
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[21 Dec 2001|02:24am] |
er. lately i've become quite an emotional wreck. i'm terrified about Saturday. Im worried about my "friends", realized they really don't stick around when I want them to, and the ones I see less of I just want to see them all the time, and they're the ones who usually help me out even if they don't realize it, and give me the most encouragement.
blah. and everytime someone is in love i begin to cry. i hate that. when i was watching Queer As Folk i was crying, and when i was reading about how much Tim Burton and Lisa Marie were in love i brokedown, and then in lord of the rings i was ready to cry but thats completely different.
so prepare myself for saturday. i have so many doubts. but ive never wanted anything to work out as much as i do now. it just seems so right.
kay well if lyndsy isnt going (which is pretty obvious) i hope angela goes ;p i miss her! yup, i miss you ;p
Take the 100 Acre Personality Quiz!
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| hobbits and such. |
[21 Dec 2001|01:22am] |
just came back from Lord Of The Rings. really great movie...cept... they didn't finish it. i wish they did though.
hhmm well im not even tired. and im getting sick =/
aw well i better be off now and go work on sum stuff.
nite.
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[20 Dec 2001|07:48pm] |
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meh. i just want to go to the filth mart tommorow. and yet, im hearing 3098409834 excuses everytime lyndsy and i make plans to go. so if there is anyone who wants to go, just please tell me. its in downtown manhatten.
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[20 Dec 2001|05:20pm] |
this is so cute.
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[19 Dec 2001|10:40am] |
nah. this isnt me, but i cant complain ;p
You're Tairrie B!
The Queen Bitch
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[17 Dec 2001|08:20pm] |
you have no idea how proud i am of my girl Lyndsy. she got her first tattoo today, a fairy on her lower back in the center (by the spine) and i was holding her and i felt her spine vibrating while she was getting it done. it was amazing though, but she was crying a little, and was squeezing my hand.
next time i see her, im gonna bring in my digital cam and post a pic of her tattoo but its just fucking awesome.
anyhoooo...
deadjournal is gonna be down for like a week so im just gonna write in here mostly.
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[16 Dec 2001|11:41pm] |
so i was feeling kinda spiffy...
i redid the content/layout to funeral-flower.net.
gillian anderson is dead sexy.
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[16 Dec 2001|08:12pm] |
Take the Corporate Mascot Test at Willaston's Lounge!
and i finally finished up angelas site & i hosted her at my domain. ;p
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